my AM went overseas with her baby last week and she came back alone this week. i was quite shocked when she just plainly tells me “i’ve lost it”.

i dunno her intensity of sadness cos this is one manager who is really very hard to read. i dun really wanna secondguess how sad she’s feeling but it’s hard for ppl to digest no matter what. it just felt damn sad cos she went back to her country to seek advice on how to keep the baby and then she ended up losing it there.

was audit the culprit? or was she herself the culprit? she’s someone who cares about how ppl look at her and she’s the kind who can’t let go. if her baby’s lost because she didn’t take good care of herself, darn, i tell you, she’s gonna be feeling really bad for the rest of her life. Although i’m sure she can have another baby, since she’s young, i guess it’s not gonna be the same ya?

let us all pray for the baby who didn’t get to see this world. maybe it knows that its mummy’s not ready for it (cos she’s a workaholic)? that’s why it refuses to arrive safely? it makes me feel beta if i think it this way.